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  • Jul. 28th, 2008 at 2:49 PM

-- learn more about jazz. I have always enjoyed listening to it, but have always been intimidated by people who know so much about the subject. I don't know where to start a collection. So right now I only have one Miles Davis cd, and I occasionally listen to the jazz station on XM.

-- read the newspaper on Sunday while enjoying a cup of coffee, and a leisurely breakfast (and maybe listening to the aforementioned jazz).

-- spend more quality time with friends.

-- have dinner parties, again. Since living here, I haven't had any.

-- have dinner at 7:30 during the week.

-- have a home that is comfortable, and a place that we like to spend time.

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Twisting

  • Jul. 1st, 2008 at 9:29 AM

I feel like I am up in the air twisting, falling. Details. I need details of how my life is going to change. I know that it is going to happen very soon, and I know a general geographic location, but I don't know exactly when, and I don't know where I will work or where we will live. I used to get so excited about a move. A change to shake things up. Now this change feels like is shaking me up. I can't get my bearings. I can't even see the positives because of this cloud of the unknown around me.

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Back

  • Jun. 16th, 2008 at 3:26 PM

Okay, so I have been gone for a while from livejournal, and probably at the time when I have had the most interesting stuff happening in my life. Let's see, since the last post I have gotten married, been sworn into the bar in Virginia and begun my practice of law. I am desperately trying to get through all of my thank you notes, and failing miserably. I have come to the conclusion for the last 5 years I have not been reading for pleasure nearly enough, and I am in the midst of creating a summer reading list for myself. I have even joined goodreads.com. We have gone to: a MLB baseball game, a bbq cookoff, 2 Friday concerts in the park. We are planning a trip to the beach for the 4th of July. I am genuinely enjoying summer for the first time in a LONG time. The last three summers have been miserable and the summer before those three was filled with fun, but also its own special brand of pain and hurt.

Looking forward to living it up this summer!

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I PASSED THE BAR!

  • Apr. 23rd, 2008 at 6:49 PM

Finally, finally, finally. A weight has been lifted off of me. The anxiety is starting to flee. I am a lawyer!

Update

  • Apr. 2nd, 2008 at 1:04 PM

I think that change I was hoping for may be coming sooner than I had thought. Although, I think the Pacific NW will have to wait a while longer.

G's 31st birthday

  • Apr. 2nd, 2008 at 12:32 PM

Tomorrow is G's birthday. In honor of our purge this past weekend, I have decided to get hom only "experience gifts." It is very clear that we don't need to bring more things into our home. So this year I am getting him a gift certificate for a massage and taking him out to dinner on Friday at Shoemaker's Fine Dining. I am also trying to arrange getting tickets for a Washington Nationals baseball game against his team (SF Giants) in June.

I think the memories of these gifts will serve us better than a new pair of shoes, or a shirt he doesn't need.

Good thing G doesn't read my LJ!

The Purge

  • Mar. 30th, 2008 at 7:10 PM

Knowing that we can't pick up and move this weekend, we did make some changes to our space. At least our surroundings could make us more comfortable. I don't normally watch Oprah (but I do like her), but I was on the elliptical at the gym last week, and I was watching the second half of an episode about hoarding. This woman's house had been completely cleaned out by a team of 100 people. Something about this story struck me. One of the experts said: If you are holding on to items because you might need them one day or because it is something you have just had for a long time, you are not living in the present. I knew that G and I had accumulated way too much stuff. He has a hard time letting things go, and I am too much of a consumer. So between the two of us, our home has been busting at the seams. When we moved into this space almost 2 years ago, we never thought we would be here this long. We thought that we would buy a home within 3 months, so we used the second bedroom as a "storage" room. We just moved unpacked boxes directly into that room. After a while it became a room where things went that didn't have a place. A few months ago we rearranged the room a bit to make items more accessible, but that really was not true.

So Friday evening we began the undertaking of going through that room. Box after box, we sorted into three piles: trash, goodwill, keep. It was amazing how big the goodwill pile grew. Between Friday and Saturday we made three trips to Goodwill and one trip to the landfill, and we are made our second trip to recycle cardboard boxes (we are keeping all of our U-Haul boxes broken down in our storage unit, but we had oodles of other various cardboard). By 11 p.m. on Saturday night our "storage" room had been transformed into a guest room/office. We brought our extra bed and a bookshelf from storage, moved the desk from our bedroom, and put together a tv stand. It is hard to believe the difference. We wished we had taken "before" pictures. Today has been spent organizing our bedroom, putting away the keep pile, and another trip to goodwill. We are working our way down to our living room. G is making us a little snack now, and I think we may get the living room finished while enjoying some cheese and crackers and a glass of wine!

We have resolved to own our stuff, and to not let our stuff own us. It feels so much nicer, so much lighter. even if this is not a move, it will certainly make moving easier when we do.

Not in Portland

  • Mar. 24th, 2008 at 4:25 PM

I have been feeling really bogged down, bottled up, something. A bubbling frustration. I don't know how to describe it. There is part of me that feels like this feeling would be taken care of by just picking up and moving. But there are so many reasons why I can't do that right this second. G and I are both ready for a change I wish we could make it right now. I wish we would magically have the answers. I just keep waiting for it to begin. I need a change. I need a change of surroundings; I need a change of faces; I need a change of pace.

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Easter Weekend

  • Mar. 24th, 2008 at 4:22 PM

Easter Weekend was pretty uneventful. I had Friday off, and went to the gastronetorogist. I am dealing with another Colitis flare. My doctor is really colonoscopy happy. He did agree to give me one more course of medication, and if I haven't gotten better at the end I will have to have another scope and stronger meds. So I am doing EVERYTHING I can to get better by my appointment on April 18. I have cut out meat, though I am still eating fish (omega 3 fatty acid is supposed to be very good for my condition). I am also cutting out most dairy. I love cheese so much, so I have to have a little, but I am going to see if these dietary changes help my digestive system.

We went on a nice long hike yesterday morning up Old Rag Mountain near my parents' house. It was G's first time doing the hike, and I think he really enjoyed it.

On the way back to Lynchburg we stopped at Whole Foods and stocked up on lots of great stuff.

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I'm Back

  • Mar. 18th, 2008 at 2:03 PM

Two months. Wow, it has been a while since I posted. So much has happened in that time. I took the bar for the fourth time. Regardless of my results, I am considering another bar exam in a different location for July. Call me crazy. Just want to keep some options open.

Wedding planning has been chugging along at full speed. The invitations were put in the mail on Saturday - eight weeks to the day. I have already heard some folks have received their invitations and mailed their response cards! I am planning to go to Staples tonight for a 3x5 card box to organize the responses. I also have my high tech spreadsheet, but I think it is best to keep an old-fashioned record as well. I can hardly believe the wedding is 53 days away - and only 50 days until G and I head to Sperryville to start greeting guests, get our marriage license, and deal with last minute craziness.

I have gotten very into cycling classes at the Y. I had to transition out of the H20 Aerobics. While I really enjoyed being in the pool, I just wasn't seeing much in the way of results. I think the best part of the H20 classes was getting into a routine of going to the gyma, as well as getting acclimated again to group exercise. The cycling classes are a real calorie-killer. Last night they had a specialty intro class - Punk Rope. It was pretty fun. It kind of reminded me of being in a HS gym class, but in a good way!

Hard to believe that Easter is this weekend, but I think this might be the earliest it can be on the calendar.

Freaking Out

  • Jan. 15th, 2008 at 11:36 PM

Why do I let myself do this? So self-defeatist. Squander time with worry and avoidance. Need to focus. 6 weeks til exam. Must use time wisely.

Can't sleep. Sick with worry. Working on essays for meeting w/ tutor.

Go Skins!

  • Jan. 4th, 2008 at 2:20 PM

So going into today we had no plans for this weekend, and now we are headed to NoVa on Saturday!  We, well I, thought it would be way more fun to watch the Redskins in their playoff game tomorrow in the DC metro area and with friends.  So we will be going up to stay with J & J.  They were already having over one friend for "tailgaiting" at home and then the plan is to enjoy the game day revelry at a sports bar.  Can't wait!!  I really relish any chance I get to flee town, and head to more exciting destinations.  

Jan. 3rd, 2008

  • 1:24 PM

Yesterday I had my first bar-related crying jag. I was on my way back from a meeting with my tutor in Richmond. I was on the phone with my mom and I was trying to explain that I currently am feeling a great deal of anxiety about my studying - I never know if what I am doing is enough. This last summer I thought I had done all the things I could/should do, and that fell short. My mom's response was to just keep doing what I am doing, but just study more efficiently. That was it. That was enough to send me over. What had I been doing? If I had only known I needed to study more efficiently, I would have passed the bar the first time around?? This only fed my anxiety of not knowing how much is enough. The tears began falling and I cried for the better part of the drive from Richmond to work. My dad gave me a pep talk, and that had me feeling a little better. I think the crying was also directly linked to my lack of sleep. I woke up yesterday morning well before my alarm went off filled with a sense of panic about all the things I needed to do. The rest of the day was spent feeling fatigued. I arrived 20 minutes early for my tutoring session, and I actually let myself sleep for 10 minutes in the car before going in. I never do that, but I thought I was at a point where 10 minutes would make a difference. Fortunately I made myself go to water aerobics after work, and that was what really made me feel better. I actually forgot that I was tired. I read this online last night: Immersion in water creates instant biological changes, including increases blood flow and awakening the senses. The result is an instant attitude adjustment and reduced stress.  That definitely makes sense to me.  I know that I feel like a different person at the end of class.  
 
So far so good on the Listerine rinsing 2X daily, and I set up an automatic weekly transfer from checking to savings.  I plan to go to water aerobics tonight and have my gym bag with me in my office.  Oh, last night was a testament to how much I wanted to be at the gym.  When I came out in my cropped gym pants and my damp feet in my crocs, I thought my feet might freeze to the bottoms of my shoes.  The temperature was around 19 degrees. Brrr!  To add to that, because of the sheer number of weight-loss/exercise related new year's resolutions, I had to park in the far outer reaches of the parking lot.  I don't think I could have scurried any faster, but I still thought I might be risking frostbite!

Jan. 1st, 2008

  • 6:59 PM

I got crocs and a new bathing suit yesterday! If only the Y were open today. I am still feeling full from all the food we ate last night, especially the chocolate covered strawberries!





We took our Christmas tree down today and boy was that a mess!! The needles were falling everywhere and the tree stand had a leak. I was vacuuming up needles for quite some time. The house is still a bit of a mess, but at least the Christmas decorations are down.

One more resolution, keep to a plan to save a percentage of each paycheck in a savings account.

Tick Tock 2008 is almost here!

  • Dec. 31st, 2007 at 10:53 AM

I have decided that my new year's resolutions will be:

1. Start going back to water aerobics. I love it and I find it incredibly stress-relieving. I just need to make time for it.

2. Rinse with whitening mouthwash before I brush my teeth.

I think that is it, These two things are reasonable and doable.

Happy New Year!

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Resolutions

  • Dec. 28th, 2007 at 10:54 AM

The end of the year is fast approaching, and until yesterday I had not even contemplated any new year's resolutions.  In general, I don't think they work for me, but I did think I should consider some positive change I would like to make going into 2008. 

The last year has had its ups and downs.  Let's get the bad out of the way first:  I failed the bar twice, my mom's cousin died suddenly, g's coworker also died suddenly.   
Now for the good: I got engaged to my sweet, sweet G;  I got to spend time with many friends, and family members over the course of the year, since I started WeightWatchers in June, I have lost 16.6 lbs.  I have stumbled a little along the way, but it keeps going down.  I have vastly improved my negative attitude. 

Looking forward to 08:  I know the first 2 months will be rough as I continue to prepare for the bar exam.  But there is so much to look forward to after that!  G and I will be married in May.  I am hoping to have some gathering of friends prior to that.  I don't want to call it a bachelorette party because I would prefer that there be no phallic balloons, straws, cakes, embarrassing games, etc.  I just want a chance to spend some quality time with friends.  I don't know if G and I have decided on a honeymoon location ... maybe Hawaii.  I have never been to Hawaii and G's family has a condo there.  I am also looking forward to getting into a groove at work. 

What should I work on for the new year?  I'm not sure.  Try to work out at least once a week?  Maybe to simplify my life.  Maybe to recycle even though it will be more work for me.  I have switched to mostly organic foods- but not organic produce.   It still allows me to do 97% of my grocery shopping on the perimeter of the store (fortunately for me the organic canned/dry foods are on the perimeter!) I will think about that this weekend, and hopefully by Monday I will have something figured out!

Making my life easier

  • Dec. 28th, 2007 at 10:49 AM

I recently switched banks, and I now have easy free online bill pay as part of my free checking account.  I cannot imagine how I lived without this wonderful service.  It as made me so organized.  As soon as a bill arrives in the mail, or in my inbox (I am gradually going paperless), I schedule a payment for about a day or two before the bill is due and forget about it! It is so simple and there is no chance for a bill to get forgotten or paid late.  I also love the fact that I don't have to use checks and I save on postage!  

Holidays

  • Dec. 19th, 2007 at 9:28 AM

For some reason, I feel very behind this year.  All of my shopping is done, except for a gift for my grandma.  She is very into gardening, Christmas and Chanel No. 5.  Unfortunately for me, she has a shed full of gardening equipment, more boxes of ornaments than she can even fit on her tree and back up bottles of Chanel No. 5.  While I love my grandma dearly, she is not particularly gracious when she receives a gift she does not like, so determining just the right thing creates a lot of pressure.  Last year I managed to get a hit with a personal power washer, but I am flat out of ideas.  While I am sure she would like it, I don't really like giving gift cards.  Christmas shouldn't create this sort of stress, but there always seem to be at least a little. 

This year Christmas Eve will be held at my parents house and my mom's siblings will join us.  For some reason, unknown to me, one aunt has not spoken to my mom since Thanksgiving.  So Christmas Eve should be interesting.  

Just realized I also should get a gift for my tragically hip cousin, and then does that mean I need to get something for all the other cousins?

The Simple Things

  • Dec. 4th, 2007 at 4:42 PM

 I think I must buy this cookbook.  It looks wonderful.  

I feel like I need something to happen.  Something really, really great.  I need a shake-up, but in a good way.  Maybe the new year will be that jolt I need, but right now I need something so I don't feel like I am just going through the motions.  

G and I often talk about what we would do and how our lives would change if we won the lottery - a big lottery.  I really like the thought of that life and it isn't even anything extravagant and really other than wanting to pass the bar on principal there is not much to really stop us from achieving that life.  If we won the lottery we would open a wine shop/wine bar/restaurant.  We would serve wine by the glass, by flights or by the bottle and have a menu of delicious but simple offerings.  We would also have a retail shop.  

I think that life would have its problems, but I really love the idea!

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Bodily Fellowship

  • Nov. 19th, 2007 at 9:28 AM

 Last week when we met with Robert (the priest), we discussed the fundamentals of Christian marriage - one of which was bodily fellowship.  I am still giggling about that one a week later!

It is more than just sex.  It is being aware of when your partner needs to be touched.  Actually, we really enjoyed the whole counseling session.  It was far more interesting than we anticipated.  Our next one is in January and by that time we will have the readings chosen.  

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